did a double take and she's gone

Heading off to Barcelona today! Won't be able to post anything until Sunday night but I'll probably be too swamped with work to even attempt a blog post! Adios until then!

the moment had passed, like i knew that it should

only 10 days left in rome and i'm ready to get out. spending time in the eternal city has gotten old and tiring, and i'm ready to move on. i've been here for nearly 6 weeks and the feeling of amazement and wonder are lost. i feel more like a resident of rome than ever and need a change of scene...

this doesn't mean that i want home though either. home is the usual, the day to day, a place i will always hold dear in my heart. i need to see the world though. i am ready to see the world. my first trip to europe inspires me to travel far and wide, all across the globe. i want to see australia, africa, south america, asia-- EVERYTHING. elephants, kangaroos, koalas, tigers, lions, anything and everything. the seven wonders of the world or even discover my own seven wonders.

i can say though that i would never want to live in italy. my liking to here is only temporary and i am sure i will remember it fondly, but i would rather get to vacation anywhere in the world than return, i don't feel a need to. italy is marked off my list, as of now. i realize i have not seen everything, but i would rather see another country than come back. returning to italy could be nostalgic and maybe i will some day... but there are too many other places worth seeing to even consider a return.

so for now i will daydream about my adventures across the world (perhaps Anthony Bourdain style?) and read the epic "1000 places you must see before you die"

read between the lines, my self respect has died

Horoscope for today:

You have responsibilities, and you take them (but not yourself) seriously.

how can i read into that? insulting? inspiring? i usually refrain from reading my horoscope until the end of the day. i feel like waiting til i have lived through the day allows me to interpret my horoscope through reflection as opposed to letting the horoscope effect the choices i make throughout the day. i read this one and it really hit a soft spot. do i not take myself seriously? could that be the cause of some of my problems?

life is too short to take seriously though. i hate thinking about it, but in reality tomorrow is never guaranteed. this is not my anthem, this is not always on my mind, but i have thought about it. i just don't really feel like i have enough direction in my life to take myself seriously. i want to succeed and make money, but then again i want to live the life of a dreamer at the same time. i am trapped in a limbo between realistic ambitions and dreamer's ambitions. how do i find a way out? please let me know.

i will keep falling as long as I live, all without ending

i traveled to italy and it wasn't until i got here that i realized how little i knew about living in another country. my friends told me Rome was a pretty Americanized place and of course i was dumb and believed them. there are so many different things i miss from home and did not realize that they would be luxuries in this country. so i have made a list of the top ten things i should not have left home without

1. peanut butter ($6 here for the tiniest jar)
2. salad dressing (apparently oil and balsalmic are the only options around here, if you are even given any options in the first place)
3. television and texting ( i don't watch much at home, but not even having one here is killer)
4. cheeseburgers (the only way to get a cheap one here is the McDonalds YUCK!)
5. driving my Explorer ( that my little sister is probably destroying)
6. PHILLIES! (3 months into the season and i haven't been to one game)
7. American dollars (life with the Euro rapes my bank account)
8. Forever 21 <3 enough said 9. Chocolate chip cookies (the closest baked goods here taste like baked flour) 10. of course MY FRIENDS AND MY FAMILY.. life on my own is harder than i thought


AND... i bought the most fabulous hair clip today... pictures will be posted later!! i doubt they will do it justice though!!

she turned and didn't wait, she left it up to fate

lately i've been thinking a lot about love and a lot about life. notice how there is no thought about love life.. yeah. no matter how happy i feel like i am, there is always that one thing missing. i mean after freakin' all i am in a foreign country studying, traveling, going out to bars, meeting lots of new people, and having the time of my life... but there is always that pressure for love. i once read an article about how the new generation is becoming more and more single-bound because we are all too narcissistic to give up our independent lifestyles. this truth in this idea scares me.i know i am independent, i know i am unwilling to give up my single lifestyle, i know i put myself first, so what? does that make me destined to be alone for the rest of my life? i want love, i want someone, but i want to be myself... sometimes i joke and say that i am incapable of love, but who knows maybe i am? there is a certain point in all relationships where i get afraid of the committment of love. forever is a long time. right now there are love interests, more so interests in me, but i try to live my life instead of worry my way through it.


"a woman's natural mission is to be where she is most appreciated."

once i find that do i find love? i guess we will have to wait and see..